I do not know what it is but I have a terrible cough and sore throat situation going on here. I think it started last weekend and just grew worse.
Thankfully I was off today and I could stay in the comforts of my own home, not have to change out of my jammies and not have to wear a bra all day long and just allowed to look sorry. Thankfully. I do not know if this has made me feel any better but when I went down for an afternoon nap I kinda felt worse. That little thing hanging down my throat is all sorts of elongated and hurting. I have had ginger tea, coffee and some rice and also some fruits. The husband is bringing me some medicines too. He is a true believer in medicines.
I kind of feel bad that I will not be able to meet some girls from work for drinks later tonight. I do not feel bad about missing drinks, just that I have had to cancel the last two times all cause of not feeling well. I just feel like I will stop getting invited cause I am a party pooper. Well you know, there is still that girl inside me who is scared of not having any girl-friends. And I think I might have spoken too soon in one of my earlier posts. I still think I do not have a whole lot of girlfriends. And I try to think why. I just do not know how to carry on a girl/woman-ly conversation. I do not know what to say when someone asks me ‘Hey, do you think this pant looks good on me?” other than a yes or a no. Another girl would probably effortlessly reply with ‘Hey, you know what you should do, wear this and this’ and then use some unintelligible woman-talk jargon .
That’s it. I am conversationally stunted.
I just need to do myself one more huge favor this year and stop convincing myself that I will someday have a thriving bustling girlfriend life. May be in some other parallel life and space/time continuum.
And instead just accept that this will always be my situation and I will always be a guys girl. I am a great guys girl btw =)
Anyway, I am very worried about my classes and financial aid these days. My aid is not sorted yet but the due date to pay for these classes is in 2 days! Now I do not know how in the world this will ever work out. If only the financial aid lady had been nice enough to explain things more clearly to me a month back.If only. If I have to drop classes again and wait for another semester , I will seriously be bitter.
I just wanted to post a picture to show how stark and gloomy it is outside these days. It was just 3:30 in the evening and the trees were all standing still. It is just eerie this time of the year here.
Always reminds me of those days from 3 years back – my last semester at school, not one person to talk to even though I lived with 5 other girls and yes there was some heart-break and lots of guilt floating around. Makes me just feel thankful about returning home to my husband and my cat and dog that much more.